I did this reading for the year ahead at 1.30 AM on the 1st of January, lying on the grass with one of my best friends under a canopy of stars. It felt like a significant start to 2016.
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Associations: inspiration, adventure, creativity, new beginnings
Book Interpretation: The possibility of creativity, excitement, adventure, a challenge to step forward with courage and confidence.
Personal Interpretation: I don’t know if its the card imagery tapping into my own UPG thats doing it, but this is such a Loki card for me. And what a card to draw on New Year. This is a card that says ‘go for it‘, a card that encourages you to chase your dreams. Don’t focus too much on the fine details of planning, just follow your gut and your heart and let go of any tension or apprehension. Let your creativity drive you forward and make new memories. Keep in mind that the Ace of Wands signifies a seed that’s been sown and now needs nurtured in order to grow.
Deck: Shadowscapes Tarot
Associations: overlooking happiness, living for today,
Personal Interpretation: Stop comparing yourself to others. Remember that, no matter what your current circumstances are, there is always something to be grateful for. Try not to analyse so much. Let yourself be spontaneous. Ask yourself what you want from those around you and how you want to improve your current situation.
I haven’t touched my cards properly in almost a month now. It’s not as if I didn’t want to – I did, but the problem seemed to be that every time I went to pick them up and do a reading – either for myself or for someone else, I was too tired, or my head wasn’t clear enough, or I had other stuff that I needed to do first.
November has been an extremely busy and stressful month for me so far, I’m not even going to get into all the details of it because they’d take up a whole blog post of their own to explain.
Tonight, I sat down and drew a card for myself after asking, ‘What do I need to focus on right now?’
The Shadowscapes Deck answered me with: Eight of Cups.
I need to focus on myself. Disengage from the hustle and bustle of life for a while – the material world holds none of the answers I’m looking for at this time. Instead, focusing on the spiritual world and my own spirituality will be hugely beneficial and healing.
24. What mask do I wear to hide my true self from others?
King of Pentacles.
I pretend to be more secure, more in control and more stable than I really feel.
In 10 days I’ll have been a Lokean for 2 years, which is a pretty big thing for me seeing as I have a lot of trouble committing myself to people and things for any lengthy period of time.
Expect lengthy posts in the next week or so.
23. Where should I look for inspiration?
Two of Swords.
Using my frustration as creative inspiration. Learning to make something of my blocked emotions and indecisions.
22. How can I embrace my creative side?
By learning to embrace myself and doing what’s right for me just now. The creativity will come along in it’s own time.
Missed out on a few days because I’ve ended up with tendinitis in my wrist which has made doing anything (including typing, which I probably shouldn’t be doing right now anyway) painful. Including shuffling cards. I’ll get back to those missing ones eventually.
21. What divinatory tool do you have the best connection with?
Definitely my cards. I’d spent years studying runes and working with them but it never quite clicked or felt 100% right for me. I found it difficult to interpret them and, although I did get a few really good readings with them, the difficult and hazy ones outnumbered those and I eventually just stopped trying. They have a special place on my altar now for Angrboda, but that’s about it.
I bought my first tarot deck at the beginning of this year after reading about tarot and studying the meanings and interpretations behind the card for years prior, and they amazed and fascinated me from the moment I took them out of the box. I have two decks now, both of which I connect with really well and adore to pieces.
18. What is my deepest fear?
Knight of Swords in reverse.
This one was a little tricky to interpret but what I’m getting from it is that I worry about people who might prove themselves to be untrustworthy. Its also indicating a fear of losing my way and wasting precious time.
17. How can I learn to love myself?
Working on my self confidence, maintaining my strength and willpower. Coming to terms with aggressive impulses and working to channel it creatively instead of using it to hurt myself and others. Ultimately, I can learn to love myself by working to better myself.